Determination

Things seem to be going wrong.

I don't know why, but it seems to me like things are going wrong for me in certain areas of life. I can't really explain why I feel like this, but this thought has been in my mind for some time already.

For some reason, I've been feeling slightly depressed (I think), with so many thoughts coming into my mind for no apparent reason or basis. Why am I feeling like that? Am I just simply thinking too much, or what?

I really don't know. Perhaps all this emotions have been kept and stored up inside me for such a long time and it is finally beginning to spill out of me.

Start Of The Season.

Wayne Rooney is the key to Man Utd's title defence and success this year. The Club is gonna be needing him and his dynamic presence if they want to be successful. He is simply THE man for the Red Devils now.

My Buddy group and El-Shaddai are collaborating tmr for the Home Improvement Project (HIP) at one of the homes in Commonwealth tmr. I can't wait to get to work, and to see how nice the house would look after we are done with everything!

Last Night.

I couldn't sleep last night, and many things came to my mind while i was tossing and turning on my bed. How many friends do I have? I mean quality friends, friends that would make the effort to spend time/chill out with you, and support you in times of need. Friends that would actually be concerned about what's happening in your life.

For the matter, how is friendship defined? On what basis would a friendship be established between two people? Is it based on common interest, lifestyles, activities, events, compatibility issues? How about those who have people they would love to be friends with, only to realise that the friendship doesn't work out since there's nothing common to talk about? Does it mean that the relationship is to be deemed as pointless and useless in pursuing?

How about those who are socially discriminated in the environment that they are living in? Do they deserve to be treated like that, to be considered as "untouchable" in that sense and a shame/joke to be friends with? Do people have the absolute right to judge for themselves who is "worthy" to be friends with? If so, what would happen to those who are not deemed to be "worthy"?

So as a result, many questions filled my mind, and as more questions came to mind, it naturally became harder for me to sleep. Perhaps the inability to sleep was the natural consequence of drinking 3 cups of coffee in day, or it could be a combination of many other things. In any case, it's been a while since i've endured a sleepless night.

Last Day At Work.

Today was my last day at the student care centre in tanglin halt. I've spent close to about 5 months there, and i've gotten to know all the kids pretty well. Looking back, sometimes I may find it tiring taking care of them since they were all so active and moving about, and to take care of 30 kids at one time sure is mentally and physically challenging at times. However, when you see the little joy that surfaces on the faces of the kids whenever you spend time with them, it really makes everything seems fine after all.

I have learnt many things during my time in the centre, most notably patience! On a more serious note, when you see the innocence and genuineness displayed by the kids when they go about doing their things/homework/play, it really makes you wonder where all that innocence that was once in all of us all went to. Perhaps that's what God yearns for all of us to have, an innocence in all of us that will please Him.

I am extremely grateful to have the opportunity to serve in the student care centre. The children and the staff have been a blessing to me all this months, and I'll never forget them. All the lessons that I've learnt and the precious time i've spent with the children cannot be found in another place in my opinion, and I'm extremely grateful once again for the whole experience.

Well I guess that's the close of a chapter in my life for now, and on to the next chapter, university studies. Basically I'm not looking forward to going back to studying since it's been 2 1/2 years since I was last at an educational institute. It will probably been kind of a cultural shock to me, but i guess i will adapt soon enough. Hope school will be fun and enjoyable for me.

But first, I'm heading to cambodia for another mission trip in 2 days time.. Can't wait to see all my fellow brothers and sisters over there haha. It's been a half a year since I've seen them, and I'm feeling pretty excited about the trip.

Back To Work

I've been struggling to find the same level of motivation I had in the past to work this time round. Perhaps I've expended all my energy during the camp that it kinda feels anti-climax to be going back there again. To be honest, I'm not really looking forward to work, but perhaps things would change when I see the kids again. Then again, it could also be that I've enjoyed hanging out with cell people the last couple of days just chillaxing around so much that work just doesn't seem attractive.

Received an sms from Wen Zheng last night, and that sms really reminded me of how fragile life can be. We really need to cherish all the time we have, simply because Life is full of rude shocks. Reality is harsh at times.

Probably gonna chill at Timbre (for the 1st time) tonight with some of the guys, waiting for some of them to confirm today. We'll probably meet much later in the night, and I'm pretty excited to be going there.

A Good Choice.

Journey ( Don't stop Believing)

Just a small town girl, livin in a lonely world
She took the midnight train goin anywhere
Just a city boy, born and raised in south detroitHe took the midnight train goin anywhere

A singer in a smokey room
A smell of wine and cheap perfume
For a smile they can share the night
It goes on and on and on and on

Strangers waiting, up and down the boulevard
Their shadows searching in the night
Streetlight people, living just to find emotion
Hiding, somewhere in the night

Working hard to get my fill,
Everybody wants a thrill
Payin anything to roll the dice,
Just one more time
Some will win, some will lose
Some were born to sing the blues
Oh, the movie never ends
It goes on and on and on and on

(chorus)
Dont stop believin
Hold on to the feelin
Streetlight people

Nice choice of song on your tribute video my friend, I'm sure your Mom loved it :).